bake sale week: coconut cream cheese brownies

Some of you may be wondering where I’ve been. I could ask myself the same thing. My friend Matt and I spent last night talking about what’s been holding me back from blogging, from writing, and really from anything I want to be doing, or feel like I should be doing. The simple answer is, and has been for some time now: I need a vacation. I’ve been so wound up with trying to survive as a stay-at-home single mom, that I barely have the time to do the laundry or clean the bathrooms and take the kids to school and help them with homework and read to them and pray with them and pack lunches and kiss their boo-boos and be their shoulder to cry on and make dinner and answer the cries of “Mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, MOM!!!!!!!!” let alone sit down and edit photographs or write something interesting. Sometimes, I feel so overwhelmed with everything, putting up a post is the last thing on earth I want to do. Sometimes, I want to make brownies without taking a picture of them, or without writing down how I made them, dammit. Sometimes, I just feel like swearing. When I blog, you’re usually not seeing the whole me (not the part of me that swears, until today, apparently). You’re seeing some of me, but you’re only seeing a version of me. Usually, you’re seeing me on a good day, or on a bad day, when I’ve managed to spin my story into something uplifting. That could be why I don’t always feel like blogging. If the real me, the whole me, is lying on her bed somewhere crying because her heart is breaking, [...]